Saturday, March 24, 2012

A Reflection on Service


I am optimistic about the future.  That being said, I often feel helpless or paralyzed as I think of the broken systems that exist in our world.  When I find myself stuck, I catch a glimpse of hope in the people and the good work going on around me, restoring my faith in humanity.  This blog post is prompted by several conversations that I have had with people this week: through a spontaneous conversation at midnight with my housemates while sipping tea on the floor of our kitchen… at my LVC mid-year review, reflecting on my experience as a year-long volunteer…and with a special volunteer, Anna, from Open Arms.

When I think about my decision to join the Lutheran Volunteer Corps last spring, I heard many different responses from people.  Some thought it was great that I was “giving back” to my community, or even that I had a lot to share with the people I would be serving.  Others joked that volunteer organizations like LVC or Americorps are something that people do when they can’t get a job or as a way to postpone entering the “real world.” A few friends were very excited to know that I would be more actively engaged in anti-oppression work, critically analyzing the systems that classify individuals into boxes, ultimately creating systems of oppression.  Even my own definition and understanding of what it means to be a ‘volunteer’ has changed quite a bit in the past couple of years, but especially over the course of my time in here in Minneapolis.  If anything, I have learned that service work is incredibly complex.

Many of us grew up very privileged and were socialized to understand volunteering as a good thing to do, because we were given so much, while others had nothing.  In many ways this is true, however it has the potential to create a power dynamic within service work that is not healthy for our communities. We start to do things for others that they can do for themselves, a concept called paternalism.  This comes in many forms—in knowledge, spirituality, resources, labor, etc.  We may begin to feel superior to others and start to ‘help’ in ways that we think is best.  Especially when it comes to poverty alleviation, we need to avoid paternalism at all costs.  The goal should really be to walk with people so they become better stewards of their own lives, communities and material needs. My friend John mailed me a book this year called “When Helping Hurts” after I visited the Kyle family this summer. This book addresses poverty alleviation work within our own communities here in the US, as well as in the form of mission work in developing countries overseas.  I recommend reading it.  It is now interesting to look back on the service projects and mission trips I participated in while I was growing up, but I now see that I really did not understand the complexity of the work that I was a part of.  Hours of conversation shared with different friends throughout my college years helped me to grow and understand what social justice really means for our world.  Social justice work is about making sure that all people regardless of race, ethnicity, class, sexual orientation, and ability are treated with dignity and respect, and granted equal access to basic human rights. In fact, as I heard this quote by Lila Watson for the first time, I realized that this thinking is the way to strive towards justice in our world: “If you have come to help me, you are wasting your time. But if you have come because your liberation is bound up with mine, then let us work together.” I cannot live freely when others cannot live freely.  Part of my year with LVC includes trainings on racism, classism, sexism, heterosexism, ableism, etc.  Each of these “isms” create a hierarchy of privilege that continue to divide humankind.  White versus black. Rich versus poor.  Straight versus gay.  When these barriers of power and prejudice exist, it is impossible for our world to live in true unity.  In fact at the core, I think that when one group is oppressed, it dehumanizes us all, whether we realize it or not.  Recognizing that our liberation is bound up with others helps to provide a framework for breaking down these barriers.

I know that many view faith and social justice work as separate, but I have grown to see them as one in the same.  I now make sense of how I want to live out my faith through a social justice lens, particularly in how I interact with members of my community that are different from me.  Having grown up in the Christian tradition, I can only speak from my own faith and experiences.  As a Lutheran, I believe that God’s grace is so expansive, that I can live in that promise and step outside my comfort zone to live a little more boldly—to participate in creating heaven on earth, a kingdom where all people live together in unity for God.  This heaven on earth is only possible when we live in equality.  Going back to the book, “When Helping Hurts,” the author argues that humans are designed to engage in four types of foundational relationships: our relationship with God, self, others, and the rest of creation.  When each of these relationships are in balance with each other, we are able to experience the fullness of life that God created us for, fulfilling our calling in life. Oppression exists when these relationships are out of balance or non-existent.  It goes back to my point that when people are oppressed, we as God’s children cannot fully experience the life that God intended for us to live, making it more and more impossible to create His heaven on earth.

So how do we do good for others to create this kingdom? Altruism is a concept that I first remember learning about in AP Biology, a behavior expressed in certain species in the animal kingdom, particularly in mammals.  Altruism at the core is the concern for the welfare of others, doing something to benefit another.  We see it in animals as messengers bring back food to other members of the community or when some individuals will fight off predators who are attacking one of their kind.  Many studies in neurobiology have shown that altruistic behaviors in humans (charitable giving, sacrificing time, etc) activate the same neural circuit that is found in social attachment or bonding among individuals.  It’s part of our basic biology to look out for other humans--it unifies us into community.  Altruism manifests itself in many religious traditions including Christianity, as it is central to the teachings of Jesus that we read in the New Testament: ‘To love your neighbor as yourself,’ or if I might push it further, ‘love your neighbor more than yourself.’  Love is God’s greatest command and it takes many forms.  This year I have spent a lot of my time thinking about this love and how it is lived out in communities in need.

So, I decided to spend a year as a member of the Lutheran Volunteer Corps—what will this mean for me in the long run?  As I look back on my experience so far this year, my understanding of service becomes more and more complex.  On the most basic level, my motivation stems from a desire to live out Jesus’ command to love your neighbor as yourself.  Beyond my placement at Open Arms, I find that this command manifests itself in all areas of my life, especially in the day-to-day interactions I have with people in my community.  The definition of “love your neighbor” has also become more complex in my mind this year.  I continue to struggle with knowing when to help and when that help is actually helpful.  I am finding that I have to take a step back to just listen and learn from people. In that space, we can learn to work together to create a world that is better for us all.  Now I am by no means an expert on this topic, but it has been on my mind all year.  In fact, I think I myself am just barely beginning to understand what this means for me.  I read this quote yesterday: “I do not understand the mysteries of grace—only that it meets us where we are, but does not leave us where it found us.”  I believe that God’s grace is so large that we are free to do the hard work of striving to create heaven on earth.  I don’t know where this will lead me, but I know this grace will free me to live a life more rich and meaningful than one I ever imagined.  I am inspired every day by the people around me who are pouring so much into each relationship and activity of which they are a part. It is this love and devotion that restores my hope in the future of humanity in our world.  That makes me optimistic for the future.  

Monday, March 19, 2012

A Sunny March

February came and went with some work stress and cold weather, but brought a wonderful March!  The first weekend in March, we had our 5-day LVC spring retreat.  A group of 20 Twin Cities volunteers met up with the Omaha group in Webster City, Iowa--were we stayed at a little retreat center a tiny farm town.  We left a snowy morning in Minneapolis and 3 hours later, found ourselves in the sun on a 60 degree day! Over the retreat, we had several LVC workshops--on community, sustainability, anti-racism and heterosexism--full of lots of great learning and discussion. We also had a lot of free time--a highlight was our lip sync competition between houses.  We picked our song just 3 days before, and with a lot of practice, we were able to pull together a well-choreographed dance to "Joyful Joyful" from Sister Act 2.  90's clothes, gospel music, it was a winner. Stay tuned for the video on facebook!

 The next weekend was Mom's birthday!  Dad was flying through Minneapolis home from a business trip, so we were both sad to miss her day.  But I was so excited to show Dad around Minneapolis. 7 months ago, he moved me into my house and helped me get settled, but this time we had lots of time to explore, and I finally have lots of places to show off to him! 
 




 The best part of the weekend was the fact that we set record temperatures for March--it was sunny and 75 degrees the whole weekend! (I have a sunburn to prove it!)
 I made an itinerary for our weekend, and had lots of fun coffee shops, restaurants and walks on our list.  We walked 18 miles worth of Minneapolis and St. Paul trails around the lakes, the river and downtown.  I can definitely feel it at the end of the weekend! 

 Dad took my housemates out for dinner on St. Patrick's Day for pizza and beer.  It was fun to introduce Dad to my Minneapolis friends, and we all had a great time!
 We had such a fun time catching up and exploring, and I think we are both exhausted from such a full weekend! I feel really blessed to have such a support from back home as I am living away this year. I have been learning so much and love sharing that with everyone back home.  Thanks for the visit, Dad!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Snow adventures

If I have learned anything about Minnesotans this year--they love to talk about the weather. They especially enjoy talking about weather records..."This is the 4th warmest Thursday in the month of January that we have had in 26 years!" (who actually keeps track of those things?!)  I have gathered however, that surviving such extreme temperature changes and snowfalls gives big points to one's character.   Over the course of the fall, I was continually warned about how I probably wouldn't survive the winter--it's not in my west coast blood. But now into January, we are having one of the mildest winters in several years, and I am indeed surviving! 
 
 
I got really nice snow boots (thanks mom!) and a great new coat that keeps me nice and warm at the sub-zero mornings at the bus stop.   While, we have only had about 3 inches of snow on the ground at any one time, I have been able to participate in some wonderful winter outings! 
These are a few January highlights:
 
Crashed Ice Event: The Twin-Cities were the first American hosts to this crazy downhill ice skating event.  Athletes from Canada and many countries in Europe came into compete, and Rebecca and I went on the last night of the finals to watch.  About 80,000 Minnesotans went to this event which started at the base of the St. Paul Cathedral. We watched teams of four skaters race at speeds up to 38 miles an hour as they raced up and down hills and around turns on the track. It was quite a sight!
 
This past Saturday, my neightborhood hosted an event called the Art Sled Rally.  Individuals and families from the Powderhorn neighborhood decorated sleds and 3-D extensions all with different themes to race in Powderhorn Park.  About 300 people came to watch and cheer on the sled riders. It was such a fun afternoon!  I love being a part of a community that comes together for such fun events.
Here are a few of my favorite sleds:
 

 
 
On Sunday, my housemates and I went out to Medicine Lake for an Art Shanties event.  Ice fishing shanties were set up on the lake, each with different themes.  We learned about ice fishing, raced around on bikes with ice skates for wheels, participated in shanties dance party, and enjoyed a beautiful sunny day on the lake.  We had such a blast this weekend, and while I am a little bummed that we haven't been getting much snow this year, I am very thankful for events like these that bring us outside to enjoy the winter weather!
 
 Happy Winter to you all! Hugs from a snowy-ish Minnesnowta!

love, Caroline

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Happy 2012!

I know this is coming a little late, but Merry Christmas and a Happy 2012 to you!

 December was a wonderful month here in Minnesota--full of multiple Christmas parties every weekend! A few highlights include ice skating in downtown St. Paul, caroling through my neighborhood with 20 friends, and a lot of cookie making.  Christmas is absolutely my favorite time of the year. Just ask my roommate Emily who called me out on singing "It's the most wonderful time of the year!!" everytime I walked in the door from work.  I spent my evenings making Christmas cards, making Christmas presents--earrings, paintings, canning, etc-- and cutting paper snowflakes for the wrapping!  It was like Santa's workshop in my house everyday.  I also wore a lovely selection of Christmas sweaters everyday during my last week of work. 
  
Our friend Pieter stayed at our house for the month of December and brought delicious cooking and fun company. We were sad to see him go at the end of the month.
A Wellstone House Nativity Scene

 To add a little extra winter cheer at work, I decorated paper bags that hold our client meals at Open Arms with paper snowflakes too.  (I'm still finding paper scraps all over our floor.)  Open Arms was full of wonderful volunteers this month--even more excited to donate their time to bring our clients great food.
 I made a lot of earrings and magnets for little Christmas presents. I got a fabric button maker and a quarter yard of fabric and punched my own fabric buttons to make stud earrings.  They were so easy! I also took clear stones left over from Christy's wedding and put different patterns of scrapbooking paper underneath before attaching magnets on the back.  They were so fun to make!

 Last year, I spent my finals week making about 100 Christmas cards in between studying for finals.  This year I had even more time! We had Christmas card making everyday for a week, and I enjoyed teaching Pieter a few scrapbooking tips.  Here's a few favorites.

 After a long week at work, I flew home late on Friday the 23rd, greeted by this wonderful family!
We made and ate some lefse as soon as we got home (about midnight) and got all caught up. Christmas Eve is our big day in the Olsen Family.  We did some finishing touches around the tree and cooked good food for our feast.  After our family photoshoot, we got to share in presents we got for each other!  I made a lot of my presents this year as I have way more time than money...it was fun!
 Christy and I got each other canning books--canning for the new generation!  Everyone also got many samples of my canning treats...hopefully not too much!
 We ate great food, played on our new iPhones, and watched some great movies and concert DVDs.  It was so wonderful to be home together. I forgot how much I missed being with my family! It's hard being halfway across the country, but our time together was the best!


 Halfway through the week, we drove up to Seattle for cousin Christmas and New Years! We met Dwight, Penny, Whitney, Emily and Anna at the ice rink for Whitney's birthday party and had a fun pizza and skating party! We each took turns and had lots of fun laps around the rink.
 I also got to have breakfast with Sallie and Ruth, 2 of my favorite ladies from PLU! We spent a large portion of our time reminiscing about our best times working in Ramstad (trust me, that could go on for hours!) and enjoyed sharing in what we've been learning after PLU, as both Sallie and I are volunteering with non-profits this year. If anything, it made me miss them more!
  
Family Christmas was spent with the whole family and we were able to celebrate Judy's birthday too!  A fun cousin gift exchange with poems by Penny helped bring the whole afternoon to a great close.  It was great to see everyone--I miss you all!
 For New Years, I met up with some of my dearest PLU friends--Nicole, Stuart, Katie, Mary, Tiffany and Laura--and a few others at a great party at Nicole's! Great food, drinks and conversation were shared over many hours, and we spent midnight at Gas Works Park with a great view of the Space Needle fireworks show.  It was such a perfect New Years!
As I was flying home, the skies were clear and I had the best view of Mt. Rainier and the 3-D Washington landscapes. It was hard to leave such a beautiful state and a wonderful week, but I am always thankful for time spent with people I love.
 Blessings to each of you as you bring in the New Year.   Here's to a rich 2012!!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Much To Be Thankful For

For the first Thanksgiving ever, I didn't get to spend the day with family. While I missed them and our style of cooking very much, I had a very meaningful day!  Working at Open Arms, I have learned so much about the power of food and good nutrition, so it isn't surprising that Thanksgiving is one of our busiest times of the year in terms of meal deliveries. This year, I helped coordinate all of the Thanksgiving deliveries.  Clients either received a frozen free-range, organic turkey with all of the trimmings to cook their own Thanksgiving feast, or a prepared meal that we delivered on Thanksgiving Day (that arrived in beautifully painted bags!) 

In the 10 days leading up to Thanksgiving, we delivered something along the order of 25,000 meals!  Thanks Mom and Dad for sponsoring turkeys for 10 families here.  Thanksgiving Day, we all worked at Open Arms, coordinating the deliveries and finishing with a morning feast with all the staff and volunteers. It was such a special way to start Thanksgiving morning, and great to finish the week with a feast after running around like crazy for the two weeks leading up to it!

 The Open Arms Thanksgiving morning festivities!
 My co-worker Ellen and I after our successful Thanksgiving meal delivery coordination!


In the afternoon, Eric and I went to Rebecca's parents house in St. Paul, where we shared in a wonderful Thanksgiving feast with her family.  We had a great feast, and I got to contribute our famous green jello with sprite and applesauce family treat.  When we got home that night, I skyped my family over at Christy and Carl's house, which made me miss them more! But I'm so glad that they had such a good Thanksgiving too.


One thing I love about my LVC experience is that I am invited along to so many wonderful things.  Not being too attached to any one group, I accept as many offers as I can!  So Friday through Monday of Thanksgiving weekend, I was invited to join my LVC landlords and their 2 little boys up to the Lutsen ski resort on the North Shore of Lake Superior for a weekend of skiing!  I babysat the boys Linden (age 5) and Soren (age 7). We had such a blast playing board games, reading books, knitting, swimming, skiing and exploring the North Shore.  I will always be very grateful for these new experiences with people who want to share them with me! It was fun to tag along with another family for a few days. =]





 On our way home, we drove through Gooseberry Falls which is beginning to freeze over, so icicles covered the whole surface of the waterfall.  It was beautiful! A vibrant sunset on the way home and lots of car games brought the weekend to a great close.

As the end of November approached, I realized that I have so very much to be thankful for this year.  After graduating college, a lot of unknowns were ahead...who would have known that life could be so great after leaving a place like PLU?!

A few things I am thankful for after graduating college:
1. I celebrated my graduation with all of my family in the area.
 2. 6 days later, I flew to Europe to travel for 3 weeks with one of my very best friends: Annika Odegard--sharing in the trip of a lifetime!
3. I then spent a week at Flathead Lutheran Bible camp with another group of my favorite friends.

4. Jenna and Andrew got married, and I got to be one of the lucky ones in the wedding party! Followed by the best reunion of my PLU friends.
5. Mom, Courtney and I got to take a trip to Chicago and Virginia to see our old home and friends.
6. Dad and I roadtripped out to Minnesota with a stop through Yellowstone, and then he helped me move into my new home!
7.  I ended up with the best LVC placement--Open Arms--in the best new city--Minneapolis--with such wonderful new people!
Most of all this Thanksgiving week, I am thankful for my family!! Miss you all.